It's been a while since i've had a chance to talk to you.. or to myself i should say since no one's listening but the future me. On December 16th, a great and terrible thing happened. I just thought i'd tell you. As amazing as it was, I regretted it for a while..i couldn't bring myself to love the way I did. Slowly and steadily i'm learning to love myself and my future husband the same way I did before the little..incident. I was scared up until January 1st, but I thank G-love for that scare because it taught me (us) a lesson and it taught us well. I finally feel at peace with myself. It was one mistake after the other and it kept happening and happening and I felt shittier and shittier about it until it got to that point, the peak of it all..I want to start this new year fresh and not make any more mistakes.. my writing is extra weak right now. or should i say write now hahaha crack myself up. I have a lot of thanks to give our God.
Baby, I love you because you are the funniest boy i've ever met. I love you because you understand everything that I say to you, I love you because you are incredibly smart and in the way that counts in life. I love you because you are so passionate about life and everything that comes with it.. music, love, family, beer..all the right things. I love you because the way you smell makes me want to take my clothes off, and I love you because you won't let me. I love you because you brighten up the room and make everyone smile. I love you because you have a special type of grace with children. I love you because every time I get mad and hang up on you, you call me and text me until I can't resist to reply. I love you because you leave me bruises and you let me leave you bruises. Cruiser Bruiser! (sorry) I love you because you try to help me even if I don't need help.. I love you because you put up with my mood swings. I love you because you are going to be an amazing husband and father. I love you because you have a heart that can understand everything, and feel passionate about things that other people look past. I love you because you can enjoy music and weather and beer in such an extraordinary way. I love you because when I'm with you I feel like I am with myself. I love you because you get goosebumps and your eyes get watery for the gayest things. I love you because you have a HUGE you-know-what. I love you because your lips and teeth are gorgeous and the way they move when you talk makes me want to beg for kisses. I love you because you appreciate everything God does for you.. and i mean truly appreciate. I love you because you waited four years for me. I love you because that one time Eggs told you I was a stuck-up cheerleader you didn't believe him. I love you because your hands are fucking beautiful. I love you because I can do absolutely nothing with you and have the time of my life. I love you because you aren't shy at all. I love you because you are musically inclined. I love you because you are taking a risk by loving me so much, knowing that G-love might have another plan for me. (doubt it though, baby) I love you because when I think of my future, the first thing in my mind is you. I love you because you sing me to sleep. I love you because you sing on key. I love you because you always make that face when your eyebrows go up, and I love that you have a little line on your forehead for it. I love you because you are a hard-worker. I love you because the way you touch my face makes me feel like i've never in my life felt before. (i'm getting the chills just thinking about it) I love you because you dress so comfortable all the time. I love you because you look adorable no matter what you're wearing or how you did your make-up. I love you because you can eat as much as I do. I love you because you just called. Muah.
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