Tuesday, August 30, 2011

the minute mark

To my love, my future wife and the future mother of our feos, our one year anniversary is just a few hours away. It's amazing that for 4 years everyday I would think about you and imagine all The things I would love to share with you and now its been a year of doing all those things WOW :). From meeting eachothers family and taking fun trips to drinking beer and eating Yummy food and loving one another everyday through thick and thin. I know most couples go all out this one day a year and although this day is extremely special to us so is everyday that we have one another and this love God has put in our hearts. I love You My Baby, My soulmate, the perfect brown skin woman, mi fea more than everything in this world. I LOVE you not less but God more. So instead of going all out this one day, I promise to go all out everyday for the rest of our lives unless I'm sick like I am today because then I'm useless and I'm more than likely going to need you to baby me :). Tonight we'll eat nuggets and drink a beer, because that's what we love, right on the very spot we stood 5 years ago and A year ago when you asked me out :). I love You chula. En un barco de papel yo volvere por ti mi amor, mi primer y unico amor por siempre y para siempre
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Sunday, August 21, 2011

the perks

Today was ridiculously awesome! Your tio Alex came over this weekend while your Tia Jo went to long beach to visit her awesome sister carmen. Your mum and I sang in the church chior for a quince and a wedding which was incredible then we went to watch planet of the apes. Kick ass movie! Followed by dinner at dennys. We had an al green sing along on the way home which was amazing :). There is nothing in existence better than having this kind of love. A love that you can feel deep in your soul a love that keeps you smiling everyday ofyour life a love that can heal you from anything, a love that makes you love EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE in a real, honest, peaceful, neverending way. A love that gives you goosebumps in a great way. A love that leaves you astonished everyday of your life. A love that fills you with appreciation and compassion. Love that teaches you patients and gives you all the gifts your heart desires. A love that rids you of the vein and unnecessary. A love that leaves you not wanting or needing anything more. This love is not ours. God has lent us this love and me must do all that we can to show Him that we appreciate His love and Love Him as much as we humanly can. By the way kids not all of the things we blog about will be directed towards y'all Aight and ask us about random stories you read here, I want to see if I remember a lot of details. For some reason your grandma and grandpa remember every detail in their stories like everyones last names (ex."a Si, me acuerdo que marcos vasques el hijo de doña elena estaba alli"). Test us. Goodnight feos. Loooove you
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Monday, August 15, 2011

Oh kids

Your dad is a dork. which is why I love him :)

Domingo De Fiesta

As I wrote the title out for this blog post I giggled a very happy giggle because of the fact that I know your mum and I will NOT have white washed kids and you'll be able to read this title without a problem, along with "ciera la puerta rene" (I'm sure youve heard that story before), lol. I know the last time I blogged I starting telling you about your mum and I and our story but ill continue on that later when the first of you turns 18 he he. The reason I came here today is to tell you that It's okay to not know everything, in fact I'm here to tell you that we know nothing. God is so huge that our little imperfect human minds can't even understand .00069% of what goes on and that's okay because what we do understand is beautiful. Your mum and I may not always have all the answers but we know and strongly trust that G-Love is always with us and helps us through it all. I don't know you yet kids but I already love YOU and I think about you at least once a day. Every little bit of wisdom G-Love gives me I try and remember it so I can apply it in our relationship or share it with you guys so that we could be awesome parents and friends and So that you feos can be as awesome as us (ppsssshh YEAH). Oh and its totally okay to make mistakes :). In fact I've made a ton of them and I continue to do so but its okay, the important thing is to not make the same mistake twice and to learn from every one of them and be better after it. I LOVE YOUR MOM, I had to throw that in there. By the way your mum is attending college to be an English teacher :) HOT! and I just graduated from a pharmaceutical sciences course ;) in which your pa was valedictorian which means I gave the speech :). Your uncle Beito Janet just got married on the 30th of July which was awesome and your tio Alex and Jo with no E got engaged in Paris on the Eifel tower on the 27th of July. BEAUTIFUL! well kids Im done pooping and It's starting to kinda dry up lol. I love you guys. God bless you amazings who are still little angels. Muah. OH! Rock the bells is this month! Do you know what that means??? L-boogie, E Bahdu, blu, Murs, BLACKSTAR!, Common. It's going to be amazing! We will take photos we promise! Never mind I wiped my butt and washed my hands.......... let's chat lol just kidding. Late!
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Friday, June 24, 2011

A week of trials

We must always be thankful, faithful and trusting in our Creator. Especially in hard times. These are times of trial and tests. Our problems are blessings in disguise. Real freedom is giving your life to God, letting go of all worries and handing them to Him to make what He wants of them. It will surely be what's best for you.
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Friday, April 29, 2011

boy meets the love of his life

Miss ditash already covered most of how we met but before I continue on that, I want to tell a little of the first time I saw my future wife. It was the summer of 05 I believe and I was standing by the amphitheater at the high school with a mutual friend of ours when she walked by with another mutual friend. As soon as I saw her my soul felt this deep happiness that I couldn't shake, and never did and I would feel it every time I saw her. After asking my friend a few questions I found out I wouldn't see her at school again cause she was from out of town or so I thought. That day I came home and couldn't stop thinking about her and the way my heart and soul felt as I watched her walk away into the cafeteria for what I thought was for good. Summer was over and it was the first day of school when I walked in and saw her cute little smile, short hair and her beautiful brown skin. Orange sweater tight jeans and vans. I wanted so bad to meet her and talk to her, my whole body could feel that she was for me and this was before we ever exchanged a single word. I played it cool though and patiently waited until we met through our friends which wasn't until a few days later. I failed to mention that the first time I say my love she was wearing tight jeans, vans, a black band T and pig tails with little bows in her hair (she claims to have started this he he). I don't remember when we properly met all I recall is that somehow we started talking and proved my feelings right. She was hilarious and wise and had the coolest taste in everything and not to say that I'm cool or anything but it was like talking to myself!! Like she mentioned we had bf/gf at the time but still we would talk every lunch about the coolest nonsense. I was in love with her already. We broke it off with the kids we were dating and then came the amazing cd she made me. It had one song on it!!! It was hombres G "te quiero". Everything about this cd just blew my mind! She put just one song on a cd!!! Not only did she do that but at the same time showed me music I had never heard before that was RAD and on top of that she was telling me how she felt about me through a song! (If she ever tries to tell you she isn't romantic, bite her please) okay wait I totally skipped a piece. So she gives me a cd which I'm dying to hear and luckily a friend of ours had a disc man (kids by the time you read this a disc man will be in a museum as artifact of early technology) so I popped the cd in and heard it. Like the fact that we dug the same everything and made eachother happy the way nobody else could wasn't enough she goes and makes this single song mixtape the way I would have thought to make one.......... its late and she's text me a few times now. I don't want to keep her waiting any longer. I'll continue tomorrow, promise. By the way, we're deeply insanely in love. It's almost been 8 months now.
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Thursday, April 28, 2011

One day

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The Beginning

I realize that we've never told the story of how we met. And the reason for that is probably because we don't remember how we met. However, we would be very pleased to tell you what we do remember. I was a freshman in high school and he was a senior. We hung out with the same group of friends. Somehow I always befriended the guys, and he was part of a group of them. He even went to my quinceanera. So we don't know the first time we spoke, but we do know that that same day, we both went on myspace (yeah, that's right) and commented each other on how AWESOME and COOL each other was. We were like "you're so cool!" and then the other was like "you're so much cooler!" and so on. We became super duper good friends, and during lunch, we would stand and talk about awesome things. We liked the same music from what was cool back then to spanish music that we liked. He had a girlfriend and I had a boyfriend at the time, so we didn't confess our love (okay, our like) to each other or anything.. but we always spent time together and, as he would say, bullshitted during lunch and after school. One day, after we had both broken it off with our boy/girlfriend, I decided I was going to tell him how I felt. So on a blank CD I added a song which described the way I felt...just one song. It was a spanish song titled Te Quiero by Hombres G. I can't tell you how he felt when he heard it so i'll leave that up to him. The song translates into "I like you," though words always seem to have more meaning in spanish. From then on, we would write each other love letters with nice things (he's always been the poetic type). One day he walked me to my mom's work, and that was the day of our first kiss... it was quick and painless. just kidding... we didn't become boyfriend and girlfriend until that summer, though. I'll save that for next time. Ciao!

Friday, April 22, 2011

We ask that you forgive us

oh millions of followers, for not blogging in such a long time. we have been extremely busy with church things. Future me, our very own husband is going to be baptized in the Catholic church....TOMORROW! I know right? We are very excited and we have been preparing for this grand day during these past few weeks. I know that doesn't explain why we haven't blogged in MONTHS.. I want you to know that we have been doing wonderfully. We are still ardently in love, you can be suer of that.

Much love and kisses.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

blind side

I can see your hair and hear your voice. Your hands occasionally make it past the seat as though to tease my face and when you move in your seat your scent makes it to me and reminds me of the comfort you bring to my life. I am having the time of my life imagining how your mouth is forming as you speak with your lips momentarily showing your beautiful teeth as they come together and part for every word. I can't wait to enjoy great beer while we hold hands or sit next to eachother in the company of our family. I'm so excited to charge with you in my arms. My buff sexy arms ha. Bro! I love you baby. You just turned around and my heart went a little crazy and my soul felt your comfort and love. I an so blessed to have you. I love that you're djing this drive with your amazing taste in music :). Wow love I can't believe I have you for me. God has blessed us insanely. You just turned around and kissed me :) It made my body go crazy he he. Thank you G-Love, MUAH.
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Wednesday, February 2, 2011

First thirty one.

January is gone and it left a ton of memories that fill our hearts with an amazing beautiful feeling. Santiago Damien De Leon was born Jan. 17 at 9:59 am weighing in at 6lbs 1 oz. and measured in at a healthy 19.5 inches. Which marks us at 5 wnderful nephews and 2 gorgeous nieces. Come April we'll be at 6 nephews he he. Jeanette (our sister mother of alonzo and santiago) has been staying here at the house and it has been a joyful experience having her back and spending time like we havent in such a long time. i missed her more than i thought. I love her and the babies so much and juan (our brother in law) also. I feel that i love him in a different way now. Watching him spend time and display love to his children makes me extremely happy like water works happy and it excites me to have some children of our own but really everything makes me want to be married and have kids with my AMAZING Love. (yes you honey). Im bummed out that she leaves this weekend.



We've started school and its really exciting to learn a bunch of cool shit. Im proud of us. its been kinda hard not having time like we used to to spend time with eachother though. It seems like everytime we find time to do something cool school gets in the way. its okay though im just complaining like a child when i know that this will give us the ability to start our own home and explore the world. We have the rest of our lives to explore this earth and eachother, we just get anxious at times. Its all goood.



I've also started attenending Cathecism which is a BEAUTIFUL experience. I love getting together every wednesday with the rest of the Cathecists and talk about G-Loves love. The whole room is filled with it. ahhhhhh its undescribable. It isnt just that feeling alone either its the feeling of knowing that im that much closter to bieng able to put a ring on the love of my lifes finger and sealing our love in Holy matremony.



With Gods help ive gotten a lot better at dealing with my nervousness. I can drink coffee now and be fine. Prouuuuuuud of youuuuuuuuuu. he he he. and the nervousness comes and goes but it isnt as bad as before and it doesnt ruin my days anymore. The power of a prayer should never be underestimated.




We've been fighiting a little and acting like children some and thats okay. I wouldnt want to fight and be a child with anyone else. The fighting is miniscule compared to all the amazing times we have baby.

We are an amazing couple and i thank God everyday for having blessed my life. Nothing invented by man can compare or express this Love we have. There are no letters to arrange or images that can be captured by light that can depict or express this amazing feeling i get when you stand there with my body next to you yours and you say four words that mean and infinite amount of feeling and i dont know what other word to use i just know that what i feel you feel also and that is something i will never let go and always appreciate. I am fearlessly IN LOVE WITH YOU and i hope i am as amazing and beautiful and posotive and strong and loving and caring for you as you are for me. I am so blessed to have the opportunity to be your husband. When i walk or drive or sit or work i think about it and i laugh histeraclly and cry cause i cant belive that God brought me back home to the woman i thought about everyday and cried both in happiness and sadness over for 4 years. WOW!!!!! Im sorry i made stupid decisions within those four years baby but i assure you none of it meant a thing. i was lost. God has given us this love because he belvies in and loves us. He knows we will appreciate it and care for and love one another in a beautiful and honest way. God has blessed our hearts honey.


My love has came over a lot more and has gotten to know mom and the rest of the family better and im SOOOO GLAD that they love eachother and mom gave me a kiss on the cheek :) (dont hate). Im super excited to have our families meet eachother. I have huge feeling about them all getting along and loving eachother.



I miss you baby.




Thank you G-Love for this beautiful life.
 "god dont give you nothing to heavy to carry, my lifes so beautiful i think i wanna marry it."

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Can't stress this enough,

I would put a picture of a couple kissing passionately here, but I can assure you we are a thousand times cuter and more passionate than anything on the internet..than anything invented.

I AM INSANELY IN LOVE.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Hello Again

It's been a while since i've had a chance to talk to you.. or to myself i should say since no one's listening but the future me. On December 16th, a great and terrible thing happened. I just thought i'd tell you. As amazing as it was, I regretted it for a while..i couldn't bring myself to love the way I did. Slowly and steadily i'm learning to love myself and my future husband the same way I did before the little..incident. I was scared up until January 1st, but I thank G-love for that scare because it taught me (us) a lesson and it taught us well. I finally feel at peace with myself. It was one mistake after the other and it kept happening and happening and I felt shittier and shittier about it until it got to that point, the peak of it all..I want to start this new year fresh and not make any more mistakes.. my writing is extra weak right now. or should i say write now hahaha crack myself up. I have a lot of thanks to give our God.

Baby, I love you because you are the funniest boy i've ever met. I love you because you understand everything that I say to you, I love you because you are incredibly smart and in the way that counts in life. I love you because you are so passionate about life and everything that comes with it.. music, love, family, beer..all the right things. I love you because the way you smell makes me want to take my clothes off, and I love you because you won't let me. I love you because you brighten up the room and make everyone smile. I love you because you have a special type of grace with children. I love you because every time I get mad and hang up on you, you call me and text me until I can't resist to reply. I love you because you leave me bruises and you let me leave you bruises. Cruiser Bruiser! (sorry) I love you because you try to help me even if I don't need help.. I love you because you put up with my mood swings. I love you because you are going to be an amazing husband and father. I love you because you have a heart that can understand everything, and feel passionate about things that other people look past. I love you because you can enjoy music and weather and beer in such an extraordinary way. I love you because when I'm with you I feel like I am with myself. I love you because you get goosebumps and your eyes get watery for the gayest things. I love you because you have a HUGE you-know-what. I love you because your lips and teeth are gorgeous and the way they move when you talk makes me want to beg for kisses. I love you because you appreciate everything God does for you.. and i mean truly appreciate. I love you because you waited four years for me. I love you because that one time Eggs told you I was a stuck-up cheerleader you didn't believe him. I love you because your hands are fucking beautiful. I love you because I can do absolutely nothing with you and have the time of my life. I love you because you aren't shy at all. I love you because you are musically inclined. I love you because you are taking a risk by loving me so much, knowing that G-love might have another plan for me. (doubt it though, baby) I love you because when I think of my future, the first thing in my mind is you. I love you because you sing me to sleep. I love you because you sing on key. I love you because you always make that face when your eyebrows go up, and I love that you have a little line on your forehead for it. I love you because you are a hard-worker. I love you because the way you touch my face makes me feel like i've never in my life felt before. (i'm getting the chills just thinking about it) I love you because you dress so comfortable all the time. I love you because you look adorable no matter what you're wearing or how you did your make-up. I love you because you can eat as much as I do. I love you because you just called. Muah.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

December, You and me.

I apalogize Love and Self for not blogging in so long. I knew i wanted to i was just waiting on the right time


This December I was enlightened on the true meaning of Christmas,  ( i knew its meaning i just never truely grasped it and felt it so deep in my heart) and was able to celebrate it with a beautiful loving and carring family whom i love and get to spend every holiday with for the rest of my life. They are Blessing to my life but not my life alone, to anyone who knows them. I hold them dear in my heart.



Thank you G-Love for being so loveful and forgiving and smart. I apologize for the many times that i have offened you. You've given me so much that i havent asked for or feel i deserve but you give me these things because you believe in me. I am forever gratefull for you Love and the ability you've given us to feel everthing happy/sad along with your discapline. We've learned our lesson and thank you for scaring us to death :). We Love You, BEAUTIFUL GENIOUS. muuuah!!




My Love, nobody will love you the way i do.bes belie dat he he. This past  year we became closer than we have ever been and we've been growing together both as individuals and as a couple. I am beyond happy that it is you who G-Love has blessed me with to share lives with. I couldnt and wouldnt want to go through life with anyone else. I love you because we are so comfortable around eachother. I love you because we share a sense of humor and you can make me laugh like not a lot of people cant. I love you because you are unknowingly romantic (the word romantic must have something to do with being from rome huh?). I love you because you love yourself. I love you becasue you eat more than i do most of the time. I love you because you can drink beer and appreciate its taste not just because you wanna get drunk and disrobe. I love you because you are passionate with mostly everything you do. I love you because you are honest. I love you because you arent afraid to hurt my feelings. I love you because you point out things i need to work on. I love you because you are my Hip-Hop. I love you because you make a great mother and i cannot wait until you have a little belly. I love you becasuse you are a genious and you know it. I love you because you have an amazing amount of self confidence. I love you because you are beautiful i mean look at that face and those thighs and those boobs and that butt and that stomach (im getting turned on by thinking of you). I love you because you kiss me and make me feel like nobody has ever made me feel before. I love you because i love myslef. I love you through G-Love and that is the Greatest Love. I can write on forever but then i wouldnt get to telling you this........ I appreciate you and being able to have you in my life baby so so much and i can never repay G-Love blessing my life with You but i will try. I hope that i can be as strong of a person for you and you have and will be for me. I've never wanted to spend the rest of my life with one person and im glad its you who i feel i dont want to live without. I'm really excited for us beggining this new year together and for our resolutions. I love you baby and i cannot wati to see you later. MUAH!!!

                                                        ,Tu Panson.