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I can see your hair and hear your voice. Your hands occasionally make it past the seat as though to tease my face and when you move in your seat your scent makes it to me and reminds me of the comfort you bring to my life. I am having the time of my life imagining how your mouth is forming as you speak with your lips momentarily showing your beautiful teeth as they come together and part for every word. I can't wait to enjoy great beer while we hold hands or sit next to eachother in the company of our family. I'm so excited to charge with you in my arms. My buff sexy arms ha. Bro! I love you baby. You just turned around and my heart went a little crazy and my soul felt your comfort and love. I an so blessed to have you. I love that you're djing this drive with your amazing taste in music :). Wow love I can't believe I have you for me. God has blessed us insanely. You just turned around and kissed me :) It made my body go crazy he he. Thank you G-Love, MUAH.

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First thirty one.

January is gone and it left a ton of memories that fill our hearts with an amazing beautiful feeling. Santiago Damien De Leon was born Jan. 17 at 9:59 am weighing in at 6lbs 1 oz. and measured in at a healthy 19.5 inches. Which marks us at 5 wnderful nephews and 2 gorgeous nieces. Come April we'll be at 6 nephews he he. Jeanette (our sister mother of alonzo and santiago) has been staying here at the house and it has been a joyful experience having her back and spending time like we havent in such a long time. i missed her more than i thought. I love her and the babies so much and juan (our brother in law) also. I feel that i love him in a different way now. Watching him spend time and display love to his children makes me extremely happy like water works happy and it excites me to have some children of our own but really everything makes me want to be married and have kids with my AMAZING Love. (yes you honey). Im bummed out that she leaves this weekend.



We've started school and its really exciting to learn a bunch of cool shit. Im proud of us. its been kinda hard not having time like we used to to spend time with eachother though. It seems like everytime we find time to do something cool school gets in the way. its okay though im just complaining like a child when i know that this will give us the ability to start our own home and explore the world. We have the rest of our lives to explore this earth and eachother, we just get anxious at times. Its all goood.



I've also started attenending Cathecism which is a BEAUTIFUL experience. I love getting together every wednesday with the rest of the Cathecists and talk about G-Loves love. The whole room is filled with it. ahhhhhh its undescribable. It isnt just that feeling alone either its the feeling of knowing that im that much closter to bieng able to put a ring on the love of my lifes finger and sealing our love in Holy matremony.



With Gods help ive gotten a lot better at dealing with my nervousness. I can drink coffee now and be fine. Prouuuuuuud of youuuuuuuuuu. he he he. and the nervousness comes and goes but it isnt as bad as before and it doesnt ruin my days anymore. The power of a prayer should never be underestimated.




We've been fighiting a little and acting like children some and thats okay. I wouldnt want to fight and be a child with anyone else. The fighting is miniscule compared to all the amazing times we have baby.

We are an amazing couple and i thank God everyday for having blessed my life. Nothing invented by man can compare or express this Love we have. There are no letters to arrange or images that can be captured by light that can depict or express this amazing feeling i get when you stand there with my body next to you yours and you say four words that mean and infinite amount of feeling and i dont know what other word to use i just know that what i feel you feel also and that is something i will never let go and always appreciate. I am fearlessly IN LOVE WITH YOU and i hope i am as amazing and beautiful and posotive and strong and loving and caring for you as you are for me. I am so blessed to have the opportunity to be your husband. When i walk or drive or sit or work i think about it and i laugh histeraclly and cry cause i cant belive that God brought me back home to the woman i thought about everyday and cried both in happiness and sadness over for 4 years. WOW!!!!! Im sorry i made stupid decisions within those four years baby but i assure you none of it meant a thing. i was lost. God has given us this love because he belvies in and loves us. He knows we will appreciate it and care for and love one another in a beautiful and honest way. God has blessed our hearts honey.


My love has came over a lot more and has gotten to know mom and the rest of the family better and im SOOOO GLAD that they love eachother and mom gave me a kiss on the cheek :) (dont hate). Im super excited to have our families meet eachother. I have huge feeling about them all getting along and loving eachother.



I miss you baby.




Thank you G-Love for this beautiful life.
 "god dont give you nothing to heavy to carry, my lifes so beautiful i think i wanna marry it."

Can't stress this enough,

I would put a picture of a couple kissing passionately here, but I can assure you we are a thousand times cuter and more passionate than anything on the internet..than anything invented.

I AM INSANELY IN LOVE.

Hello Again

It's been a while since i've had a chance to talk to you.. or to myself i should say since no one's listening but the future me. On December 16th, a great and terrible thing happened. I just thought i'd tell you. As amazing as it was, I regretted it for a while..i couldn't bring myself to love the way I did. Slowly and steadily i'm learning to love myself and my future husband the same way I did before the little..incident. I was scared up until January 1st, but I thank G-love for that scare because it taught me (us) a lesson and it taught us well. I finally feel at peace with myself. It was one mistake after the other and it kept happening and happening and I felt shittier and shittier about it until it got to that point, the peak of it all..I want to start this new year fresh and not make any more mistakes.. my writing is extra weak right now. or should i say write now hahaha crack myself up. I have a lot of thanks to give our God.

Baby, I love you because you are the funniest boy i've ever met. I love you because you understand everything that I say to you, I love you because you are incredibly smart and in the way that counts in life. I love you because you are so passionate about life and everything that comes with it.. music, love, family, beer..all the right things. I love you because the way you smell makes me want to take my clothes off, and I love you because you won't let me. I love you because you brighten up the room and make everyone smile. I love you because you have a special type of grace with children. I love you because every time I get mad and hang up on you, you call me and text me until I can't resist to reply. I love you because you leave me bruises and you let me leave you bruises. Cruiser Bruiser! (sorry) I love you because you try to help me even if I don't need help.. I love you because you put up with my mood swings. I love you because you are going to be an amazing husband and father. I love you because you have a heart that can understand everything, and feel passionate about things that other people look past. I love you because you can enjoy music and weather and beer in such an extraordinary way. I love you because when I'm with you I feel like I am with myself. I love you because you get goosebumps and your eyes get watery for the gayest things. I love you because you have a HUGE you-know-what. I love you because your lips and teeth are gorgeous and the way they move when you talk makes me want to beg for kisses. I love you because you appreciate everything God does for you.. and i mean truly appreciate. I love you because you waited four years for me. I love you because that one time Eggs told you I was a stuck-up cheerleader you didn't believe him. I love you because your hands are fucking beautiful. I love you because I can do absolutely nothing with you and have the time of my life. I love you because you aren't shy at all. I love you because you are musically inclined. I love you because you are taking a risk by loving me so much, knowing that G-love might have another plan for me. (doubt it though, baby) I love you because when I think of my future, the first thing in my mind is you. I love you because you sing me to sleep. I love you because you sing on key. I love you because you always make that face when your eyebrows go up, and I love that you have a little line on your forehead for it. I love you because you are a hard-worker. I love you because the way you touch my face makes me feel like i've never in my life felt before. (i'm getting the chills just thinking about it) I love you because you dress so comfortable all the time. I love you because you look adorable no matter what you're wearing or how you did your make-up. I love you because you can eat as much as I do. I love you because you just called. Muah.

December, You and me.

I apalogize Love and Self for not blogging in so long. I knew i wanted to i was just waiting on the right time


This December I was enlightened on the true meaning of Christmas,  ( i knew its meaning i just never truely grasped it and felt it so deep in my heart) and was able to celebrate it with a beautiful loving and carring family whom i love and get to spend every holiday with for the rest of my life. They are Blessing to my life but not my life alone, to anyone who knows them. I hold them dear in my heart.



Thank you G-Love for being so loveful and forgiving and smart. I apologize for the many times that i have offened you. You've given me so much that i havent asked for or feel i deserve but you give me these things because you believe in me. I am forever gratefull for you Love and the ability you've given us to feel everthing happy/sad along with your discapline. We've learned our lesson and thank you for scaring us to death :). We Love You, BEAUTIFUL GENIOUS. muuuah!!




My Love, nobody will love you the way i do.bes belie dat he he. This past  year we became closer than we have ever been and we've been growing together both as individuals and as a couple. I am beyond happy that it is you who G-Love has blessed me with to share lives with. I couldnt and wouldnt want to go through life with anyone else. I love you because we are so comfortable around eachother. I love you because we share a sense of humor and you can make me laugh like not a lot of people cant. I love you because you are unknowingly romantic (the word romantic must have something to do with being from rome huh?). I love you because you love yourself. I love you becasue you eat more than i do most of the time. I love you because you can drink beer and appreciate its taste not just because you wanna get drunk and disrobe. I love you because you are passionate with mostly everything you do. I love you because you are honest. I love you because you arent afraid to hurt my feelings. I love you because you point out things i need to work on. I love you because you are my Hip-Hop. I love you because you make a great mother and i cannot wait until you have a little belly. I love you becasuse you are a genious and you know it. I love you because you have an amazing amount of self confidence. I love you because you are beautiful i mean look at that face and those thighs and those boobs and that butt and that stomach (im getting turned on by thinking of you). I love you because you kiss me and make me feel like nobody has ever made me feel before. I love you because i love myslef. I love you through G-Love and that is the Greatest Love. I can write on forever but then i wouldnt get to telling you this........ I appreciate you and being able to have you in my life baby so so much and i can never repay G-Love blessing my life with You but i will try. I hope that i can be as strong of a person for you and you have and will be for me. I've never wanted to spend the rest of my life with one person and im glad its you who i feel i dont want to live without. I'm really excited for us beggining this new year together and for our resolutions. I love you baby and i cannot wati to see you later. MUAH!!!

                                                        ,Tu Panson.

To My Love

It's been a while since I wrote to you. I know we had a rough night and this morning i'm not making anything better. Sometimes i feel like i should keep my thoughts to myself, I feel like I annoy you with all this and for that I am sorry. I hope that these thoughts go away soon and it can be just me and you. I believe that I am special to you and that you can't compare me to anyone. I've never been insecure like this but I think I know what I need to do to get back to where I was. I'm trying to fix this, love. I promise it won't be long til I do. I love you.

p.s. thank you for a wonderful birthday party, you are the best fiance ever.

Common - The Light

G-Love has blessed me with a Wonderful Light that constantly refreshes my heart with Love. Everyday I am more than thankfull for her. Thank you so much G-Love for blessing and Loving us.

Its the 5th day in Our first December and i cannot wait for My Love to get off of work wich will be in about half hour so we can spend some time together next to the Christmas tree.

P.S I bought a hook so we can hang up the reef on the door :). I love you baby. mmmmmmuah!!!